Bad bad day... today is our 7th year anniversary when we first met... and our 4th year anniversary for our rom... but we didnt have any celebration... yes i m on chicken pox... but guess wat... not even a "happy anniversary" or "love u"...

It seems like 70 years... but i guess 70 years old couple will still say "love u" to each other... we are not toking to each other oso... wat is this... tired...

He did something on him which i dun like... and had mentioned to him before... but guess to him is nothing... since his family is not saying anything who m i to say... and he didnt even bother to tell me anything... till now... haha... wat the shit...

I'm so tired... been trying so hard for all this to keep it goin... y m i the oni 1 doing it... so many things in my head... i realli got to let it go slowly... if there is response back i dun mind doin it... as in putting in effort...

I had been putting so much effort... lost all my energy already... all my love had been given away and no love input... all drained off... aarrggghhh!!!

Give in to him... did all my best to make him happy... but nothing back from him... i dun expect anything but even little things like holding hands also dun have... haha... wat is this...

Since things had gone this way... i leave it as it is... since he is not moving then i shall take my stand...

Chicken pox faster heal i need a break... i need to rest... i need a holiday... hmm... since my bkk trip gone... so now i planning another alone... haiz... wat to do...

Perhaps jus a short getaway... hmm... perhaps same island again... since its so convenient... haha... bintan!!!

Got to end here... tired... tired with so much things in mind...