What is marriage? I duno... but for me is just a paper to tell others that we can have kids officially... without others toking behind us about being single-mother or single-father... or we didnt anyhow slp ard...

What is a marriage when ther is no care and concern for the other party?

What is a marriage when ther is no mutual respect for the other party?

What is marriage when ther is no time for the other party?

What is marriage when one party doesnt noe wher is the other party at all even aft work, even late at night?

What is marriage when one party doesnt even call or msg the whole day till night time or even days?

What is marriage when they dun go out for days or months alone? not even dinner?

What is marriage when they dun hold hands for months?

What is marriage when they dun make love for months?

What is marriage when they dun tok or even no topic for months?

What is marriage when they dun share tots for months?

What is marriage when onli one party takin care of the kids most of the time??? even when they
are sick???

What is marriage when one party oni gives time to his own stuffs, frens and own family not even kids?

What is marriage when oni one party gives in to another?

What is a marriage when one nvrs notice the other at all of all the changes?

What is a marriage when one doesnt get praise with anything at all from the other... while she got good praises on her work from others outside?

What is a marriage when she had already give in to accomodate his family? and he doesnt even respect hers?

What is marriage when he says pregnant is not a "Wei Da" thing... thou others think it is?

Prob jus like i say marriage is jus a paper to be a prove that we didnt slp ard to have kids... and he is the official father and me the official mother...

Sometimes i wonder if i hav a husband? haha? i realli duno... i need ppl to b ther when i m sick but nvr would b... i have to b ther for myself... see doc myself... been years...

When i m pregnant i have to go checkups myself... Probs i face i got to settle myself... I really envy my frens... they can have time with hubby... they can share with them... they celebrate anniversary, valentines day, bdays... me? nothing... but even i dun complain i m still nvr the good one to him...

But wat more can i ask? nothing... cos its never ther for me... no matter how strong i m or independent i m i still want to have a shoulder ther for me to lean on to rest for prob jus that small while... but nope... i never have it... its been like that since we started to b together... i was taught to b independent... cnt rely him for anything... wat to do???

I duno what is love from hubby? i duno what is the feeling of being loved... can someone tell me???